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[Apr. 29th, 2030|09:47 am] |
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message.if you wanna come with.
(since you stubborness pisses me off
i'll make the first move.) |
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| We are all getting older |
[Apr. 16th, 2009|02:08 pm] |
I had this neighbor who lived across my house. We used to hangout a lot as children. Once they moved out, i had stopped hanging out with my neighbors as all the younger ones have moved to different places and all that was left in our village were old people.
Here we are today 13 years have passed and that same neighbor i used to play with messaged me on YM.
"What school are you going to?" he asked me.
and with that i replied, "DLSU but I am actually leaving school coz i'm done with it. i'm graduating already."
"OH. i didn't know you were that old.. i'm entering DLSU palang" he said
GAAAAAAASP hahahaha! I am old! My former playmate is entering college life ID 109 and i am graduating ID 106! gah
hahahahaha!
work force, here i come haha! |
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| The sweet and a lot of the sour |
[Mar. 21st, 2009|09:13 pm] |
Life really has its way of being the biggest goddamn bitch around but whatever it seems to do, i still end up loving it.
1. School has been really tough. It took me some time to snap out of my Christmas break-mode and I take full responsibility for all the shortcomings i have had. Now, i am left with a week to finish my thesis and I am struggling to find the right things to say.
One big downfall for individual thesis: I am all alone. When I am lazy, I have to snap myself out of it. It's not that easy. BUT i would not say that I was not working on my thesis either because I was. My fucking panel just gave me an overwhelming amount of things to add and correct. I wish I at least had a partner to coerce me to work or give me some input so that my analysis is not just limited to my perceptions.
2. UGH, enough of that. PRACTICUM has been the biggest fucking EPAL in my life. The museum is fun and all but my damn boss is a little exag when it comes to giving us work and to think that we're already doing double the hours we have to. fuck this shit.
3. Bitch number three came in the form of false hopes. Justin and I got through a screening and we were supposed to be booked for a job when I find out that i have been replaced. Soon after, Justin finds out he's been replaced too. People think that it doesn't take a blow at your ego every time you don't get booked, but it does. We just put our happy faces on and stay optimistic but when people trample over that small sense of optimism we have, it's hard not to want to punch their faces in.
4. I'm really really tired. I want to sleep.
5. Certain events take place and sometimes I just wish that they did not have to happen. I used to tell myself that I live life with no regrets. Is that even possible? Nowadays, i don't think i can live my life that way anymore. I should regret starting a vice, regret doing things in the past, regret not doing something and whatnot.
I'm too tired and incompetent right now to even come up with a witty ending for this post. so i leave it as it is.
The end of my college life is so close. |
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| LABO! |
[Feb. 8th, 2009|10:58 pm] |
I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU.
it's. just. so. weeeeeeiiiiird!
i was not whining, complaining, or even annoying you about it and now you're mad --i think.
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isa pang weird, THE FREAKING MUSEUM AT LA SALLE.
"REMINDER: Meeting with the Curator at 1030 today!"
'REMINDER' MO PWET MO! WALA namang text beforehand so hindi siya pwedeng maging REMINDER.
WHAT THE FUCK, OJT?! WHAT THE FUCK.
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I want to graduate at this very moment. |
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| it's my birthday |
[Jan. 31st, 2009|12:57 pm] |
...and i've come to realize that i should actually check the internet for these really crazy allergies i've been getting.
so i searched.. and found the same thing. This so-far incurable "red itchy bump syndrome" that is found only in females is what i believe i am afflicted with. I was really happy when i woke up coz it's my birthday but then i researched on these CRAZY ITCHY BUMPS and found out that most cases have not been fully cured. :( i cannot wear my short skirts, short shorts, and bikinis without feeling slightly angry, depressed and what not. :(
i am extremely affected by this. :(( i want to cry.
they just keep spreading. keep getting itchier and itchier...and it doesn't want to go away. (i'm going on week 2 of pure itchy-torture.) |
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| My Konstantine |
[Nov. 28th, 2008|12:59 am] |
minimal changes on my thesis! DEMMMMMSUUUUN i am so happy!!!
I've fallen out and back into love. I'm happy again! |
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| All i want for christmas... |
[Nov. 21st, 2008|04:59 pm] |
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Most of the stuff i want are too expensive anyway.. this is just a dream list. :(
I WILL NEVER GET ANY OF YOU. :(
i love you, gucci shoes and balenciaga blazers. :(
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[Sep. 15th, 2008|08:45 pm] |
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TIMMY POTENCIANO!
i found you heart shaped shades online
click click!
http://fashionxchange.multiply.com/photos/album/58/Lolita_Heart-Shaped_Sunglasses
HAHAHAHAHAHA! sabaw i just had to
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[Aug. 15th, 2008|06:22 pm] |
COMPREHENSIVE EXAMS PART 1: DRAMA AND POETRY
COMPREHENSIVE EXAMS PART 2: FICTION AND CRITICISM
TRED REPORT
THESIS PROPOSAL
GENDERS FINAL PAPER
FINAL PAPER FOR DEATH IN VENICE
...2 out of 7 is good enough! time to be a slave to school again.
GADDEMIT. just a little more and it's FREEDOM and 2 terms until ULTIMATE FREEDOM!
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[Aug. 1st, 2008|01:58 pm] |
I wish i could sleep all day.
damn you, thesis proposal. DAMN YOU.
i really have no time for fun and I'm not just exaggerating. I go out to Dru's house and I ALWAYS end up falling asleep. Then he wakes me up and its too late for anything else so he takes me home. I feel so bad that I'm not in the mood for anything anymore but sleeping and studying.
It's hell to think that I've gone into a ritual made up of studying, sleeping late, reading for class, going to school then class, sleeping at the condo, studying some more then sleeping again. WHAT A BORING LIFE.
2 more terms until i finally GRADUATE. that's if my thesis does not delay me. hopefully not. haha!
I have become Literature's bitch. |
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| marking the 20th month |
[Apr. 30th, 2008|03:01 pm] |
20 months of being with dru. Yeah yeah! solid steel fence!
and today... he is off to boracay without me. :( |
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| Death at 21 |
[Apr. 2nd, 2008|07:00 pm] |
Death at 21
Nectar of life from my beloved's cheek
speak to earth and tell the worms to be gentle as he sleeps
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it started out with good intentions. i tried showing how much i cared for this person if he does die but after tweaking some parts, i liked it more. without the cutesy title and shit. my professor even told me to make the title a name...but i couldn't kill my beloved through my writing just yet. turns out, she likes this title more. wuhoo! my professor passed this to be published but i can't get it published in school because i'm not a member of the literary group...
If i can get this published, i get an instant 4.0 for this class... help? |
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| RAYBAN ROCKSTAR CONTEST |
[Mar. 26th, 2008|11:26 pm] |
STICK, MOTHER FUCKER!!!! CONGRATS BIYATCH! i knew that someone from the team would have won!
yes, yes. my friend is now a rockstar. |
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[Mar. 24th, 2008|08:20 pm] |
i wish La Salle didn't have to send us back to school after Holy Week.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
i wanna relax already! |
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| i'm freaking out |
[Jan. 25th, 2008|03:59 pm] |
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Lately, I've been shaking involuntarily. I'm fucking serious.
Last night, I was pretty sure it wasn't that cold. Out of nowhere, i just started shivering like crazy. Freaked me out.. i just passed it off to Dru that i was feeling cold but IT WASN'T TALAGA EH. =P
AND
Just before i wrote this post, my left arm started shivering and i couldn't control it.
My arms feel so weak and my hands aren't steady anymore.
:( what is this? |
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| xmas |
[Dec. 26th, 2007|04:07 pm] |
i really don't like christmas and i'm not looking forward to my birthday.
BOOOOOOOOOOOO
i hate being sick. baduy ng christmas and i have a feeling my birthday is going to be bad as well. -_- |
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[Dec. 12th, 2007|04:58 pm] |
Who has been on break since monday?
ME! ahhahahahahahahaha wuhoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
as Ed would say, SARAP MO BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| first day of 2nd term |
[Sep. 10th, 2007|08:21 pm] |
I'm taking my majors now and hopefully i don't die in the process.
I have FICTWOR -intro to fiction/ world of fiction and our final paper is on a THICK ASS NOVEL... IN DEEP TAGALOG. tangina!! i need to pass all my majors or i can, as the vice-chair said so, "fish in other ponds" HAHAHAHAHA!! we also have this hyper-active classmate who talks non-stop. He's like a talking push pen gone wrong. Every other second, he has something to say. Things that only he understands. Every now and then, he'd mumble and talk to himself. he really freaks me out. He's so energetic about everything and talks about everything rin. I swear, i tried to be REALLY nice by talking back. I'd ask him what he's talking about so that i could relate but OMG he is overboard on the energy. He leaves Nicole, Lia, and I speechless. I hope groupings aren't permanent coz OMG i will die.
There was one prof that really caught my attention. He was the funniest prof (aside from Sir Gerard-SERRR SERRR!) and he made a lot of sense.
He talked about what he thought of transformative learning. i agree with him.
He also talked about how he abhors haughty people. He kept saying, "Kung panalo ka, panalo ka na..you don't have to shove it in their faces because if you were in their place, you'd hate it." and "You don't have to make others look stupid while you excel."
gotta agree with him there.. he's really a no-nonsense teacher. i love him. i hope he doesn't fail me though.
Don't be haughty. It's not attractive on anybody.
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The barkada's so tan. NAKAKAALIW SOLID.
I still love you, Lia. I don't care if you're shedding skin hahaha!
It's the first time i've seen Dru in the CLA building. nakakapanibago. but i like it. :)
I NEED A MIRACLE... HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO WRITE A PAPER ON THAT TAGALOG NOVEL? HOW, LORD? HOW?
FATHER'S IN JAPAN! hope he's having a great time.. :D |
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| I am so stressed BUT excited! |
[Aug. 23rd, 2007|10:47 pm] |
I'm really trying to be equally nice to everyone but i can't. All the stress is making me more reclusive than i want to be. Nowadays, i really like my alone time.. in the car, in the bathroom, in my room, and in the family hall with my headphones on.
Amidst all the stress of finals and a BIG --no, HUGE chance that I'm not going to be a dean's-lister this term, I really am searching for the peace, relaxation and serenity that i need to help clear my mind. I'm not totally anti-social and introverted now though..that would be an exaggeration. all those times i get alone are the times i usually am alone anyway. I'm not going to avoid people to get some peace in GP though. that would be stupid. haha the family makes me happy and i tend to forget all my stress (for a while lang) when I'm around them. HAHA
It's irritating the way almost everything is due on Wednesday next week. It's like a guarantee that I'm going to look really stressed or maybe worse -haggard on my freaking anniversary. I've been spacing out a lot lately thinking and planning lots of random things jumbled with a lot of school work. It's getting harder and harder to make time for other people now aside for myself.
blarrrgh! anyway, no matter how hassle Wednesday is, I can't wait!
Dru's been hyping up his gift and plans.. sooo it really has to be something to be hyped about..
can't waiiit!
Guys, this has been the longest relationship I've ever been in. hahaha pardon me for all the excitement. :)
Plus, That's my last day! I WANT TO FINISH THE TERM already.. I'M SO SICK OF IT! i hate my classes this term. ahaha! |
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| tagaytayarizing |
[Jun. 13th, 2007|08:25 pm] |
...with Guada, Tom, and Dru was the best.
bag of beans, horseback riding, Gpoint, drinks, and billiards... SAYA!
next month ulit! can't wait!
...yeah, that's all i wanted to say.
oh
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I'm losing my mind!! stress to the maximum level! nonstop wooork! |
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[May. 27th, 2007|02:21 pm] |
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| [ | can you feel it? |
| |  light up with this lighter! | ] |
HEY YOU, smoker! yes you!
why not light your cancer sticks with STYLE!
tangina..hahahahaha
okay..
my friend, Guada, designed this cute ass ZIPPO dinosaur and it's really fucking cheap man.
she's just trying to make some cash like all of us. You can also have one custom made with your own design and shit.
here's the link to her journal. CHECK IT OUT!!
just check it out, pota or i'll SLICE you!
http://udderz.livejournal.com/260996.html |
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[Mar. 20th, 2007|10:08 pm] |
Things that don't go the way you expect it to go shouldn't stop your world, make you fall on your knees and make you cry.
for me, i just try not to think too much.
for the reasons that my head has been hurting and maybe i am just a little bit too stressed.
i just don't want to add to the dizziness I've been experiencing lately.. so easy easy lang ako. haha!
for example:
nicai, may group work daw tayo due bukas!
ows?
oo, dude!
astig. alright.
oooor i can't *insert action here* anymore
that's okay. that's fine. no biggie.
really? ok.
yeah, dude. really..ayos lang.
AND I DO SAY ALL THAT WITH REAL HAPPINESS! wow. not so emo anymore HUH! |
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| School clinic nurses |
[Mar. 19th, 2007|09:41 pm] |
those school nurses really are BIAAAATCHHHHES.
fuck. don't medicate me then. they probably thought i was faking it or something but putangina
i've been sick since thursday
i'm always dizzy
i get tired easily
i can't breathe right
i always have this feeling that i want to barf
oh and..
there's blood in my spit.
BUT.. they said.. "stress lang yan" and "baka it's because of your fever"
they gave me a ventolin pill (which didnt work) and told me to drink lots of water.
MEDICATE ME, putangina!!!!
++++++++++++++++++++++++++ it's almost our 7th month (official) and 10th month (dating)!!!! woooohow. Ang tagal na dude... astig. i love berries! :) you make me so HAPPEHHH! we've made it this far na. good job! omaylawdshehetmaygadsolidnitoparrrrreeehdikomatakeshizzlefordrizzletusdanceEH!
+++++++++++++++++++++ the best line we used in our project proposal earlier" "it'll be quite costly sir!" hahahaha ++++++++++ putangina back to work! SOOOOO MANY THINGS TO DOOOOO!! ...kirby kasi eh. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! 5 pesos! kasi malamig! cup noodles... sa tagaytay! eooowh. hahaha! |
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